My life - My thought

Life can be saying as indescribable actually, and by that, neither does it mean indescribably good nor bad. Just bear in mind, I don't know how to describe it.

Since I joined the university group, my life has become totally different. As for the timetable itself, I think I had biologically made some adjustment to fit in. But till now, I still don't think my time is as flexible as it was before in Malaysia. Reason for that, I can't describe.

< > ---- 5%

< > ---- 50%

< > ---- 20%

< > ---- 10%

(anyway, the gaps above are meant to be something. It's just that blogger sucks, they disappear when I publish my post and I can't be bothered to do it now. Will fill it out later)

These things have literally filled up 85% of my mind. I can't afford to spare another 15% of my mental energy to any other things else besides doing nothing, surf the net or do something that actually makes me feel good. I seriously need some sort of hard disc expansion to my mind. But how can I do it? I am mentally busy...(not to mention THE control freak in this case)

One of my friend was telling me she is soul-searching at the moment. She used to have eye piercing but she took it off.
"What I was in Vancouver doesn't mean what I am in London"
That's her reply to me.
"What prompt you to do so? I mean, it's obviously a big move and that impulsive gesture of yours, ..."
"I want to figure out what I want. I think I'm not in the right place, doing what I should do right now."

People always need someone to tell them what they want, don't they?
Do you really know what you want? Or are you doing something that someone had told you before you actually want it?

All in all, life sucks cause it has to be in this way.
Still, I hate control geek!